Lost In The Calm

So used to the chaos of always having a plan.

Always working towards something,

Wrapped up and consumed in my goals.

My desires, my growth.

Forward thinking, mind always in the future.

Beating myself up if i’m not achieving.

But what happens when the goals slow down?

Starting to question everything.

What should I do next?

How do I embrace where I currently am?

Stay in the present, enjoy where I’m at

Being riddled with discomfort.

Being still. Thinking. Overthinking.

The unfamiliar of not being swept up in short term goals.

Trying to appreciate where I am without a critical lens.

Of my own expectations,

That I should be working towards bigger and better.

But what is bigger than learning to appreciate how far you have already come?

More will come. Goals will develop. New realities will flourish.

In due time, I will learn to be still.

Not lost in the calm. Used to the chaos